Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Sticking Around

Hey everyone. I know, it's been awhile. I wanted to offer an update on things past, present and perhaps future.

Some of you out there might be wondering about a few things. Why haven't I been posting much? What's the deal with donations, why doesn't the button for that go anywhere or work? And what happened to my old Tumblr?

I didn't and haven't posted much recently (and when it comes to non-commissioned personal work, haven't posted for a long while) due to dealing with some difficult depression, which in turn made things in life, personal and professional, really difficult. And some of that, okay, much of that, affected my work as Glassfish. Enough so that a short while back I practically decided to retire Glassfish, if not permanently than indefinitely.

And so I closed the Tumblr. I wasn't feeling good enough to do much personal work at the time and so that led to not taking many of the questions that came through it, which I felt terrible about. (I didn't open the "Ask" box just to watch it - and the Tumblr in general - lie fallow.) As a result it made sense to close it. Then twitter. Then blogger. The reasons for closing the latter two being similar to my feelings about the Tumblr.

After all was done, though? I didn't feel any better. I felt worse. I felt more depressed. And so I scrambled back to see if any of what I did could be undone. And lo and behold! It could! Well, most of it. Twitter could be restored and was fully restored within twenty four hours. And blogger could also be restored, instantly. But though it hadn't been more than a few hours the Tumblr could not. Once one closes the account, it's closed. No takebacksies.

I (re)opened the Tumblr. Empty though it was now, I figured, in time, it might fill up again. And this time it would be a LOT more full with a LOT more posts and activity. Same goes for the Twitter and, to a smaller extent, the blogger. Each serve a different purpose but each are something I like to be a part of.

Oh. But what of donations? I took the buttons and links for them offline and for now, I think it should stay that way. I got several donations after I opened the floor to them but as I was feeling further and further depressed and as that took a toll on my work, I decided to return the ones received and close off the avenue for new donations in the meantime.

I meant every word I wrote in my post on the subject; I'd love nothing more than to have enough support so I could devote more time to bring forth lots of art of all type, like comics and sketches and strips and even animation (especially comics and animation). But I won't ask for that kind of financial support until and unless I feel it is or can be earned. Over the years you folks have been great to me. Helped lighten my life in times of deep difficulty. I want you to feel just as respected and appreciated as I have and continue to feel.

What I'm saying is, it's time to get back to the things, and especially the folks, I missed so much. So say hello here or on twitter, or ask a question or two in the "Ask" box on Tumblr. But most of all, as always, as ever, just be yourselves and remember: you're awesome too.

Keep swimming,
Glassfish

p.s. I guess as a famous character in a movie (and series) I adore would say it: And here we... go!

21 comments:

  1. Welcome back home Glassfish. I am happy you didn't leave us and to hear from us showed you how much everyone cared helped you. We are depressed and have things in our lives that leaves us with very little to keep on going. But this is a pain not easily done alone and I think everyone of us feel the same. For now, let's try to be happy together as we can with our perverted minds to create beutiful things in life we can only wish for.

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    1. Thank you for the kind words! I'm doing my best to get things back on track here and not let the difficulties of depression and other issues get me down.

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  2. We Love you Glassfish!

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  3. So glad to have you back, GF. The Internet is a happier place with you on it.

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  4. you earned whatever money you got for the freaking record. do what you need to do and feel however you will but don't ever think you didn't earn the money! ahem, also glad your back, depression sucks, love you.

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    1. Thank you! I'm not sure if I entirely agree on that, considering there's so much more I can do. I'm just happy I'm back to posting again!

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  5. Fantastic!!!!!!, I was, and im sure everyone else, was really worried when everything went silent, would you be back or not? did somthing serious happen? i am so relieved and very happy for you that you managed to push through your depression just like you have for me, seriously your kind heart and kind work really puts a smile on my face.

    Please take all the time you need and make decisions that YOU want to make (just give us a bit of an update form time to time ;) ).

    I understand about the donations, when I was doing tutorials and videos, I had people asking me to donate and I could not bring myself to put the button up, felt it wasn't earnt.

    I can't wait for more posts including your personal work, keep your head up! :) and welcome back to the real world.

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    1. I'm so happy to hear that my work was able to help you through depression. Sometimes it's hard to believe that my work can have such an impact on my fans.

      What I went through (and in a way, are still going through) is very hard, it might be serious for me but in the grand scheme of things may not serious to others. I'm just doing my best to maintain a positive attitude and work through the issues one day at a time.

      Looking forward to posting a lot more work!

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  6. Wish you good luck, ol' lass!

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  7. Im glad your back GF, its been Damn ass long time,ive had depression too what ive learned is that depression feeds off your negative junk making it stronger and sends it out making you feel worse. Im glad you overcame it. Cause there are people out there who are still stuck. I missed you and im happy your ok

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    1. Depression is really difficult thing to go through. And because of what I have, it's something that will never really go away. But I'm still learning how to manage it and not let it cripple my life or the things I love.

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    2. I understand. It happens to the best of us. Im glad that you overcame it. Now do your thing, like a boss.

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  8. Good to know you're sticking around. Not enough artists like you in the world.

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  9. Your art is amazing and so is your content. Have you ever thought about doing a comic with Boa Hancock or Nico Robin with a young Luffy?

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  10. Glad I read this post. I've noticed you since your WWOEC posts and like them a lot. You've developed a following and your art skills are very good. Like the content and the story plots. Would like to see more of the Wino Dino story developed, if you need a request, but from all I've seen so far, you have a great and varied imagination.I hope you can take comfort and confidence in knowing you please a lot of fans with your work and art. Keep drawing and have a naughty massage on me!

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  11. Im actually super happy to just discover that you returned since youre one of my favorite artists and I $till appreciate all the work you did eons ago on the first few illustrations of my splatoon oc and his mom!

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    1. I'm to be back and posting again! The Splatoon drawings were super cute and fun to do! I really dig the design of that game.

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